Look Up Please

In a lesson at church I was handed a slip of paper with a scripture reference on it.  Next to the reference the teacher wrote "Look up please".  This was an instruction for me to look up the scripture reference, but it spoke to me in a much more significant way, and in about a minute I had this poem scribbled out.

When you think that life's too hard...
Look up please.
When trials come into your life, when your heart's conflicted and full of strife...
Look up please.
When you feel that you're alone, when none of your friends call your phone, when childhood friends fade once you've grown...
Look up please.
Bow your head when you're on your knees, but when you're moving on your feet, don't forget the friend that never leaves...
Look up please.

The Undeliverable Message

My heart has no ears
It makes things complicated
I don't know how to tell it
That she's not coming back

My heart has no ears
So it can't get the message
That hope is futile
Nothing's gray, all is Black

My heart has no ears
So it ignores my screams
I'm telling it to move on
But it holds on for dear life

My heart has no ears
And even though it's broken
It has the false idea
That she might end up my wife

Yes I'm sorry I'm still holding on
I've told my heart a thousand times
But my heart won't listen to me or you
Because it has no ears.

A two edged sword

A two edged sword, freshly made,
never before tainted, a perfect blade.
She kept it on her at all time,
when I was hers and she was mine. 

Maybe she had not planned to use it,
but things can happen to make her lose it 

and one late night it left it's sheath,
it sliced through my soul from top to beneath.
Oh how I wish that this were true,
so I'd be dead and not thinking of you,
cuz never deeper has any sword cut,
then those four words, "I love you.. But...."

Who is she?

Who is she? I asked the stander-by with whom she associates oft.

“Why she’s strong and firm” was their reply and they were in no way wrong

Who is she? I asked her friend with whom she was most close

“She is a giver, she’s gracious” they said and I say that it is so

Who is she? I asked the man with whom she’s eternally wed

“She’s the most lovely girl in the whole world” why yes, he is correct.

If you ask ME who she is I have all those views and more,

To me she’s strong, to me she’s gracious, to me she’s lovely for sure

But I’ve seen her cry when I misbehave

I’ve seen her on her knees when I’ve gone astray

I’ve seen her flaws, her human side, I’ve seen her when she’s ill

I’ve seen her yell, I’ve seen her scream, I’ve kinda seen it all

But When she cries, I cry too, and my priorities rearrange

When she’s on her knees, I fall on mine too, and ask for the strength to change

When I see her flaws, I tell myself that I don’t have to be perfect

And when she’s mad I know what I did, was definitely not worth it

She pushes me in every way to be a better son

Who is she? She’s the greatest person alive,
She is my loving mom.

Happy Birthday Mom! I love you! Thanks so much for all you have ever done for me and all that you still do for me.  I know I haven't always been the best at expressing my gratitude, but I really am eternally grateful that I have a mom as wonderful as you.